Where Does Your Satisfaction Come From? What Does this Word Mean to You?


I honestly had no intentions of making this post by any means up until a few hours ago. I currently keep a notebook where I list my various topic ideas for the future and I suppose this will somewhat include some of those concepts as well as others I’ve mentioned in the past. A great deal was honestly inspired reading posts from a fellow blogger which made me realize that I had been thinking about this more so than I had even fully acknowledged recently.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I am truly so in love with the world of blogging in terms of being able to share ideas and thoughts with others. Blogging is more a personal autobiographical diary for me above all else really. If anyone appreciates or takes anything from it, that is all really just a plus to me.

Stay on topic, Cailin!

This all really goes hand in hand with what has even had all this on my mind recently though. Anyone who may have read my introductory post would have seen that I came across WordPress completely by accident while filling out a job application. I created one myself primarily at first just to get a feel for the site if I did manage to get the position I applied for. (I did not if you’re curious.)

Blogging and writing has always been appealing to me and something I was interested in trying but never pursued for whatever reason.

(I feel like I’m making this more about blogging which was not my intention…)

My overall point in all this rambling I suppose is that I’m a big believer in that everything happens for a reason for the most part. I’ve also found that this is a great outlet for me to occasionally organize the endless flow of thoughts that constantly occur within my head.

Jumping back to me pursuing other means of employment recently is what primarily put the current topic of discussion back into my mind. One I have always often come back to over the years for a number of reasons.

What I do for a job/career has honestly never been that important to me. I honestly have a ton of respect for anyone who truly knows what they want for themselves in this regard in many ways! When I was younger I always just wanted to help people until I realized that this could never be achieved for me in the way I wanted it to be. (I’ve mentioned this more in depth in previous posts so I won’t continue to ramble any further on unrelated things.)

My primary reason for bringing this up is with my current change in circumstances over the past few months I feel like once again I find myself bombarded by others who feel I don’t apply myself and/or waste my potential. I was completely content and happy with my old profession as well as past and future endeavors. As stated above this has never been important to me.

In all honestly, what anyone does for a living isn’t really of any interest to me for the most part. I care far more about who you are as a person and in life than your status or how much money you may make. You could make a million dollars a year and I could care less if you aren’t a good person. Granted some are able to combine helping others and/or including their passions within their professions but for most, sadly, this is not a realistic luxury. I feel this applies more nowadays than ever before.

I have never been a materialistic person in any sense whether it be what I wear, drive, own, or where I live. None of this has ever meant anything to me, nor does it matter to me in terms of anyone else’s life. If I ever do find myself overly wealthy for some reason I would probably still drive a “beater” vehicle and live in a smaller home with rather “bohemian” decor, ha ha!

I’ve never understood anyone who desires status and/or wealth feeling that this will somehow make them happy or have this need to prove anything to anyone else.

As long as I am surrounded by good people that I love, being a good person, helping others whenever I can expecting nothing in return, all while truly believing I am doing my best than what more could I ask for?

I really meant the entire theme of this post involving “satisfaction” in the generalist terms I possibly could!

I mean it also in the ways I just stated above including never expecting anything from anyone when I’m nice to them or help them. I feel like many do this for the sense of satisfaction or achievement which I will never understand as well.

I feel others even with some things can almost force a sense of satisfaction out of wanting to prove something and/or other exceptions of society in a completely different way. For example, the way that some may be obsessed with taking photos of themselves, others, places, or experiences just to prove they have/did them? (If that makes any sense at all…) I feel this reigns true more now than ever with “social media” being so important to many.

As also just mentioned above, I truly feel I have always lived and tried my absolute hardest in all aspects of life regardless of what anyone else may think about me. If I was to die tomorrow for whatever reason I would do so knowing that I was content and happy with myself all around until this point. I’ve had a great life so far honestly with many different types of experiences and people with hopefully much more still to come that I can’t even imagine.

I feel that many seem to limit their own personal satisfaction by things that other people or society put in place for them. They think they need an established career, to get married, purchase a house, have children, etc. and while all these things are well and good allowing many to feel a sense of satisfaction. You should by no means feel this is the only path to take or the only things that matter.

(I’d like to point out I have previously accomplished all of the aforementioned in the past for the record! None of this when all was said and done made me particularly happy for a number of reasons, with the only exception being my children.)

I guess I should wrap up this rambling once again with my initial question in the title of this post!

Where does your satisfaction come from?

What does this word even really mean?

I honestly couldn’t be more intrigued to potentially hear others thoughts on this subject!

As stated above, however, this is more just me needing to work out the thoughts in my own mind. About how others have recently made me reflect and think about my own actions and achievements. I know I can honestly say without a doubt that I am happy and down right proud of myself and how I’ve lived my life so far.

I don’t care what anyone else thinks about it and I never will!

Neither should you!

Whatever makes you happy and leaves you feeling satisfied with your life than keep doing it!

What else is life about?

Thank you so much for Reading!

(Jeez…I had a feeling that was going to be a long one no matter how hard I tried but come on girl…I really am the ramble on queen whether in real life or in writing even when I try my best, ha ha!)


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I’ve Never Felt Age was as Relevant as Some Often Make it Seem.


I’d like to first start by saying do not get me wrong at all to think I don’t feel that age can in some circumstances hold some level of relevance. I do feel, however, that more often that not it is rarely all that relative at all.

I feel shortly after most of us finish our varying levels of education/enter the workforce that people typically have a general sense of who they are and how they view the world. Not to say that some are not open and capable of changing in major ways but this in itself tends to be a bit of a rarity in my opinion.

I remember coming to this realization fairly soon in my early twenties. When you are still in school in your teens many still seem to have this view that “adults” are so much different than themselves at the time. (My sister being a very funny example of this still seeming to feel this way even now being 30.)

When I first became employed at a company full time regularly beginning to interact with others of all ages I came to the conclusion that by this point in most people lives that age really doesn’t mean anything. Everyone for the most part is primarily the same when it comes to what they may want, need, or desire. They have hopes, dreams, struggles, opinions, etc.

I remember I used to hardly be able to stand when anyone would jump to any type of conclusions about me as a person based solely on age. I have never considered myself to be typical in this sense often referring to the old expression of being an “old soul.” I have always thought and reflected on things that sometimes those much older than me at the time probably still have never gave a second thought in their lives.

I try my absolute best to remember to keep this mindset whenever I tend to interact with others who are younger than myself. I currently work with a young man who was only 19 when I initially met him. I have had more mature and thought provoking conversations with this person even more so than I have with people double or even triple his age. I often have even on some occasions forgotten how young he is sometimes because he in no way reflects any type of stereotypical “youth mentalities.”

Once again, this is all not to say that age does not in fact sometimes have relevance in some circumstances. Situations such as building a life for yourself including various achievements you hoped to obtain and being able to support yourself are primarily things that some can only learn with time. This concept itself is in no way a universal truth for all though as well by any means. You could be born into wealth or become famous at a young age for example.

This leads right into my next point being that a person’s age in no way reflects experiences they may have had that others can never relate to. This could range from simple things to ones that are very extreme. They could have lost a parent or friend at a young age, struggled with different types of abuse, come from a completely different national origin than you, the list is literally endless but I think you get my point.

You really can never know what goes on in someone’s head or what they may have dealt with simply just going by age or appearances.



This is just a simple thought I’ve always had in my life since I was very young and have often discussed with others. It is in no way intended to be taken all that seriously. I feel it is simply an interesting concept that can vary greatly in the opinions others may share.

I mean even think about in the distant past how short lifespans were and how different things could be as far as when people would achieve various “life milestones.” Age is as relevant as time itself. It honestly is all more just a matter of perception and how you choose to view things.

So, next time you may make a snap judgement about a person whether they be younger or older than you, maybe just take a second to really think about that before you do!

Thank you so much for Reading!


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Media Mondays! Cowboy Bebop is getting a Live Action Netflix Adaptation!


I’m sure for plenty of you this is not new information.

I knew since I found out a few months back, that I would most likely make a post on this topic.

Cowboy Bebop is probably one of the most well known popular anime that exists!

Even fans who aren’t typically inclined to watch anime have often heard of and/or enjoyed the series!

This show will always hold a special place in my heart, being one of the first shows that ever made me fall in love with anime during the good ol’ “Toonami” days on Cartoon Network!

Often, many feel it is overrated which I can understand in some ways. The amazing characters and often philosophical views expressed even in the most simplest of episodes are more than enough to sell me though!

When I found out this show was getting the very “infamous” (in the anime world) live action series by Netflix I was as equally excited as I was dreading to see how much it was butchered…

Any anime fan or avid Netflix viewer would know that live action versions of anime no matter who they are made by are typically never that good…

Like at all!

I was very excited to hear that it would be a series instead of a movie which at least inspires some hope that it will not be rushed or a larger number of amazing potential scenes not being included.

The number one thing from what I have gathered reading information and opinions on this topic entailed would who play the leads?

Especially, with all the characters being extremely iconic and unique in their own respective ways!

Many rumors spread and were imagined for who could land the roles.

Until, only very recently were some released!

I’m just going to say right now that another common “theme” with these types of projects is something that is often referred to as “white washing.” Meaning simply that with anime being primarily of Asian descent that these various live action productions seldom include performers from these regions…

It would seem that this show took the opportunity to break this mold!

When, honestly? In my opinion…

This was the last show that something like this should have been corrected!

I don’t mean to imply that Spike, for example, the man character of the show should not be portrayed by an actor of Asian ancestry. Just simply that the setting of this series taking place in space with people from many various planets is different in a sense than other shows. It often even clearly portrays races of other people, where in this character is clearly not Asian. (This is all really here nor there for me personally and more just something I’ve come across researching the upcoming series.)

Just for a frame of reference the actor chosen to play Spike has been decided to be filled by John Cho.

Who some may be familiar with in movies such as “When Harold and Kumar go to White Castle” and the newer “Star Trek” films.

Spike has an attitude and presence that I worry about this actor being able to convey…

And I’m a fan for the most part!

They also chose to do this with another character named Jet (to be played by Mustafa Shakir) when the same set of circumstances with race in the show are often clearly expressed. With this portrayal, I don’t feel the presence of personality would be as apparent or strong as with Spike in my opinion, however. Also, I feel in some ways this is not that much of a stretch because Jet does almost have an odd skin shade, not that this should be relevant at all. Once again, I’ve just seen others mention this along side the previously stated.

The actress who is due to play Faye Valentine, Daniella Pineda, seems to fit the role at least slightly better than her fellow comrades. I’ve yet to see anything positive or negative about her yet.

Last I saw no one has been selected yet to play the wild-child hacker, Edward. (I love her for the record!)

This is not to say that all of these actors/actresses won’t do an amazing job!

Clearly, a ton of other factors will depend on whether this show will be a success or not.

Only time will tell what lies for this adaptation!

For all we know it could still end up breaking the mold and turning out to be something phenomenal!



We’ll see I guess space cowboys…


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Where did all the Good People go…?

While laying in my bed at 7 in the morning here on what is now Saturday, I find myself unable to stop thinking about a topic I find myself often coming back to.

One I’m sure many of us often ponder!

I feel, more and more nowadays, that you continue to keep seeing and hearing people talk about slowly losing what little “faith in humanity” they may have left.

I find myself, more often than not, agreeing with this line of thinking no matter how depressing it may be!

However, no matter how much I do occasionally feel this way I still never seem to be able to lose my sense of “hope” whether I want to or not. I always tend to see the good in people when others may not be able to. (Unless they may have done something “absolutely unforgivable” which honestly is only a few things that are mostly universally acknowledged to be terrible. As such, I won’t begin to list them off at this time.)

I’m not one to “toot my own horn” as they say, but throughout most of my life I have always had people, both personally and professionally, tell me that I’m “one of the nicest people they have ever met!”

Honestly, I’ve never understood this…

What makes me that much different from the vast majority that allows people to pick up on this about me when I don’t feel I do anything special at all…

Is it because I always treat everyone the same no matter what?

Or that I genuinely care about everyone that I meet no matter how big or small the interaction may be?

I truly don’t understand it most the time, and as much as it is nice to hear it also makes me just as sad…

For so many people to say this when I do nothing phenomenal is just upsetting I guess?

I feel like most of the stuff you learn when your in say, kindergarten are honestly the best words you can ever live by!

“Treat others how you want to be treated!”

“If you have nothing nice to say, it may be better to say nothing at all.”

You know? Simple phrases and sayings along these lines.

It all sounds so simple to me and I don’t understand why it’s so hard for some to be like this?

Sure, I understand that human nature can be a very hard thing to overcome sometimes. The norm, more often that not, in our society is one of selfishness sadly…

I can’t blame anyone for this!

I understand but when such simple words and actions for all you know could make all the difference in a person’s day then why not simply do that…?

It baffles me most of the time to say the least!

In my younger days, I used to be one of those people who would rant and rave about how they were gonna CHANGE THE WORLD AND MAKE IT BETTER PLACE!

I still do feel this way for the most part but I am, however, significantly less passionate about it then I once was.

This kills me some days!

Indifference of good people being one of the greatest evils and all that jazz being another very well known popular phrase!

Growing older just, sadly, has a way of crushing your hopes and dreams when you are constantly just bombarded by the realities of life I suppose?

I’ve come to accept, for the most part, that the change I’ve always wanted to see in the world is “idealistic.” Most likely, it will never happen until like some great disaster or tragedy causes all of humanity to come together, or something along those lines, in the best possible way!

With the current state of things, especially in recent years, whether this end up being brought on by natural means or otherwise could very well be in the near future for all I know. I just truly pray that if such an event does ever occur that humanity can truly come out triumphant.

I mentioned once briefly in a previous post about one of the reasons why I love blogging so much is because you get news and information right from the mouths of real people. I stopped following more traditional forms of these quite some time ago. It’s really the only way I’ve been able to mildly be able to function without constantly being depressed about the state of the world.

I’ll never be able to understand things like war, poverty, corporate greed, etc…

Once again, I know this is all very idealistic but I truly never will.

It baffles me when we are beyond capable of changing things that would allow everyone adequate resources and the basic necessities of life why we just don’t simply put this into action as a society?

Nowadays, I mainly just live by another very common phrase and/or philosophy, “Be the change you want to see in the World!

If even one person is in someway affected and/or touched by a simple gesture or kind word that influences them to reflect and perhaps act as such more in their own lives then couldn’t this potentially trickle down until the whole world was affected?

I know this is not realistically possible but it’s a nice thought none the less.

Human nature will always still be what it is. At least, with the way our current society continues to function.

Anyways, just some late night/early morning thoughts from a girl who tends to struggle to sleep on a daily basis!

(The title for this post was slightly influenced by the genius musician and master poet Jack Johnson for any of my music loving followers out there! I really have to make a “Media Mondays” post on that man one day because just WOW! He truly is nothing short of amazing!)

Thank you so much for Reading!

Be good to each other people!

It’s not that hard of a concept!

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I will honestly never understand how People can say they are Bored…?

I mean this with absolutely no disrespect to anyone who may find themselves bored or often say this!

After all, I would say it seems to be more common than not from what I’ve seen or gathered from personal experience.

I just honestly will never be able to comprehend it?

Like if you find yourself bored then why don’t you just do something?

Maybe, something you’ve never tried before!

Or you could simply read up on a random topic you’ve never explored!

The possibilities to me seem literally endless.

I would say, maybe, I do tend to have more interests, I suppose, than your average person may have?

But still…

Also, I’m not like super into astrology and all that. However, I do find it to be quite a fun and entertaining topic to divulge yourself in from time to time.

I, myself, am a Sagittarius.

Interesting Fun Fact!

Almost everything I’ve ever read or heard relating to my zodiac sign describes me almost practically to the letter! Once again, obviously you need to take all astrology related things with a grain of salt.

(I’ve even read that in all reality, something along the lines of, that zodiac signs are currently not accurate considering they were originally based on the position of the sun relative to constellations. These were all set over 2,000 years ago meaning they aren’t “technically” accurate anymore. )

(Let’s stay on topic for now though! Shall we?)

My point in all that being simply one of the traits in being a Sagittarius is an inability to become bored. Which apparently seems to be universally true, for the most part, which is interesting.

If anything, my daily struggle is more about deciding how I want to spend my time?

Usually, I’m just along for the ride!

I’ll jump between activities and/or topics in the blink of an eye some days.

It’s as if I never feel I ever have enough time to do everything I want or need to do!

Just the endless game of life I suppose!

Being this way does come with it’s ups and downs like anything else.

I’d like to think it’s primarily a good thing?

Certainly, seems better than being bored!

Anyways, just some random late night thoughts from one random girl’s head. I meant nothing profound or the like by any means with this post.

Just sounded like a fun thing to do at nearly 6 in the morning!

If you have any input on boredom, whether it be your own or just in general!

Let me know in the comments because I’d genuinely love to hear other’s opinions!

As always, thank you for reading!

Till, next time!

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