I often read or even come across others in my own life that still seem to think that being transgendered is somehow a choice…?
Trust me when I say, it is in no way a choice!
Sure, if you think someone would choose to be something that affects almost every aspect of their life!
More often than not since you were a small child!
That constantly makes you feel uncomfortable and anxious!
Leaving you struggling searching to find something that makes you feel even a little better!
Maybe, you find transitioning (or not transitioning) could be the only hope you have to find some type of relief from what you’ve always dealt with!
Yet, also this means being persecuted by a large amount of the population just for trying to be yourself!
When half the time you hate yourself plenty all on your own!
Then, who wouldn’t want to sign up for this as their life, right?!?!
Please, trust me when I say that being transgendered is in No Way a Choice!
It may sound extreme but for many of us it truly is a choice between life and death. We would rather not live anymore, or finally try to live our lives as who we have always truly been and hope for the best!
Let me stress a point here!
We are nothing but normal everyday people just trying to live our lives for the most part. We truly mean you no harm! I don’t understand the viewpoint that exists at all some seem to have that we are in anyway deviants of any kind?
Let’s stay on topic though for now, shall we?
Honestly, for any of you who may have ever taken a look at my “behemoth” of a post about “coming out” would know how much I tried to suppress being trans until it completely consumed me. For as large as that post may be, it only details very small parts of what I dealt with throughout my life.
I remember being in kindergarten and my class having a “Hawaiian Day” or something along those lines at school. I wore like a fake grass skirt home we had all made in class just because I liked it. This was innocent, I didn’t think anything of it really? When I got off the bus I remember my friend’s father calling me a “faggot” and telling me to take it off. This must have hurt me enough at the time to still make me remember it to this day.
Watching home videos and stuff now with my family, they often joke with me sometimes about how you can tell I was way more interested in my sister’s toys. I know at least one of them involved a ring from a “Pretty, Pretty Princess” game. (I’m far from a “princess” for the record, ha ha!)
Often when I was younger people would often mistake me for a girl. This would make me as equally happy as it would make me upset.
Then, you hit your teens and forget about it!
You are freaking out about everything!
It’s all just wrong and it kills you!
This can often lead to you experiencing depression for most of your teens, often following you into adult hood. You can try to find various ways to deny these feelings. Shut yourself down emotionally, alcohol, drugs, hobbies, various other distractions and vices but…
IT NEVER GOES AWAY!
And it never will go away!
No matter how you end up dealing with being transgender this is something you just end up needing to accept eventually or you will probably be miserable your entire life.
For many this path leads to transitioning like myself but others find plenty of other ways in some cases that allow them to find peace with themselves.
To each their own!
I’ve said before, gender is a spectrum and you can take all the time you need to find where your place on it lies!
That seems like as good a closing line as any!
Learn to love yourselves everyone!
No matter who are you!
Thank you so much for Reading!